The Loneliness........

I have lived in Newzealnd for 1 year.When I arrived for the first time, I had expectiona for my new life,my kids's school and my dreams.I always want to do things by myself but I sometimes feel that I have burdens.At times, I want to give up my burdens however I can not to do.I am extremly lonely eventhough I have 3 kids.Do I need a friend? Do I need a lover?I am so so sad just like when I was going through puberty.If I listen to music, I cry and I am upset.If I do not to do anything,I keep thinking about my problems.I do not want to endure anymore.What can I do???Who can help me??I already know answer.The answer is ME.