apprehension

I am going to korea after 3 weeks but i am afraid of seoul so i dont want to go there.I love cuurrently nz life. I just take care of my kids,study english,enjoy to meet my friends and have a good time with gavin and erin.My nz life is very exciting. If i want to get something,i would like try to find.I wonder about 3weeks korea life because i dont want to meet someone but i must meet someone anyway i have to go..so sad...HOWEVER i will meet my good friends,i should comfort myself.Sometimes my feeling is getting worse because i really want to stay here.