too tired

I started doing dictation for an hour per day for my ielts test.It is quite difficult but I will continue to try it for english practice with my english skills..I received an email from Erin so I was very happy and really gald to hear that they had a safe flight to canada.This week, my routine is so boring and nothing special.I just stay at home all day long and I study english.I remember how Erin and I hung out and talked to each other a lot.I am so lonely....

say good bye........

Erin and Gavin who was my first western friends left christchurch last early morning.
I was extreamly sad and I feel like still live in nz together.They helped us lots of things such as teaching english,enjoying with us,giving a family relationship and so on.while I have met Erin for 10 months,I could learn various english skills snd talked about woman's spirit.When I hang out with her,I always feel very happy.I hope they have a wonderful wedding and will be more happy.I am sorry that I can't particepate in a Erin and Gavin's wedding ceremony. However I always wish a your sucessful wedding in Canada.
On the other hand,I will be very busy because I have to concentrate to study for ielts and I don't have enough preparing time.I spend a lot of money for my english lesson but I would like to study more and more.I really enjoy learning english gradually.I need a real western friends as Erin and Gavin.It is too difficult for me to make a western friend.Although it is very hard,I will try to find a new friend.
Erin!! I miss you..............

Hi,I am sorry to reply too late.
What a terrible days!
It has rained all day for over 10 days.
Thesedays I am very busy because IELTS lesson is so stressful for me and a little bit hard for me.
Jacks and me talked about IELTS and I said I worried about a result of test but he gave a lot of cheerful words and his experience of teaching for Ielts.After that I changed a my mind, I decided I belive myself and jacks's teaching skills.
I recommended one of my fiends begin to learn from him.My friend is also getting trust him.
I am exteamly exhausted every day after I applied to immigration for my visa.
I always think about a result of my visa every day.
Whether a result is sucessful or not,I will have many different problems such as work at shop, relation with owner,keep learning english and my childern status and so on.

To live is so hard to me.Especially me....Do you think only me or others are same?
Time flies by.I sometimes want to hold time in life.
I spend a lot of money for my tutoring even Lewis cann't get a lesson.
Ah! I want to see a your new hair style and I am gain weight and have a big trouble skin of face.I will become urgly after 3 months.
I have to go to bed and good night!!!
I will sent e-mail.
See you......................

the boring day.

The weather was so bad.It was rainny day.
I don't konw why was I tired thesedays maybe I got a stress of routines after I applied to immigration for my work visa and I decided to prepare ielts test.When I study english with teacher,I am very satisfied with studying but I don't like test because when I was student,I always got bad results of test so it is likes my dilema.When I test,I am nervous from time to time.
I am 38 years old,I will try to immigration to NZ by myself.However I don't have enough time, I have just brave mind and trusting my destiny.In the future,after my son lives seperately from me,I live alone in NZ so I must prepare my future,I don't want a burden of my son.I have to learn language skills for my western life.
My canadian friends will go back to Canada in June,I will be lonely.They are very helpful to me in improving english skills and communicate with me about my private problems.I am very a lucky woman in NZ because I made friends and lived safely.

to kate

Hi.

What a beautiful day!
I study english for ielts test with korean teacher who is jacks twice a week.He is very smart and has good skills for teaching.However, I am very stressful because actually when i prepare to test, I get stress too easily so I am very tired after lesson.I have to get 6.5 point although I will get a work visa in a few months.If I won't get a work visa I will transfer to student visa and then I will apply to immigration for a perminant citizenship.It is just my thinking in my mind.Anyway, I have a lot of problems but I personality beilieve that I can achieve my goals in two years for my three children.
As far as I am concerened, I agree with you that Korea's life is extreamly boring because we don't have time for myself,we have time for my children and we can't talk with husband,we just used to my life.I want to enjoy my own life and spend time by myself.In Newzealnd life is possible but Korea life is impossible.
I sometimes worry about my financial problem,my status,my english skills and so on.
NEVER MIND.....
I have to concentrate in my visa and studying english.
I hope we meet as soon as possible, you enjoy your time and you get a your own real goal.
Thank you for your emai.

Friendly...

practice 5

I belive I have been influenced by my mom until now.She is very kind,polite,sensitive and optimistic.She always teaches me a variety of lessons in life such as repect for elderly,generousity and work ethics.Unfortunately,she passed away 3 years ago but she still lives in my heart so she will give wisdom og life until the end of my days.She is my mentor foerver.

Do you think it is important to learn a foregin language at an early age?

In my repect,it is important to learn a foregin language at an early age because compared with an old age,young people tend to acquire language skills more quickly without being interupted by mother language.According to childeren's reaschers,if childern want to study a foreign language,it is disarable for one to begin learning a language before she or he become 13 years old.In conclusion,I suppose studying a foreign languages at an early age more likly to succeed.

Is it good idea to have a pet?

As far as I am concerned,it depends on indivisuals.However I personallity belive that there are many advantages of having a pet.For example,it is particually good for the only child and old people who live alone.The only child can learn many important lesson from raising pet.For example,they learn how to take care of a pet,love and consideration and so on.old people don't feel loneliness with a pet.To them a pet is like a family menber.Therfore,I belive having a pet is a good idea.

Do you think it is agree to build more factories?

In my opinion,I don't agree to build more factories because we already have enormous number of factories.It contributes to destruction of enviorment.If we build more factories,the degree of air pollution would be increasing greatly,the nature will be ruined and people will get new dieases.Therefore,it isn't necessary to build more factories.

practice 4.

I belive it is important to have a hobby because it helps me to relives stress from routines.For example,my hobby is traveling.I can experience a different world form my dairly life.While traveling,I make new friends and encounter different cultures.This is the way,I can escape from my exhausting routines from time to time.Therefore,I suppose having a hobby is necessary to me.

practice 3.

My hobby is traveling.I ahve visited other countries once a year the last 8 years.When I travel with my family or friends,we get closer each other because we help and depend on each other.I like make new friends who are tourists from other countries and I am interested in different cultures.So I love a advanture og another country.

practice 2.

In my opinion,a traditional family is better than a modern family because young people in a extended family can learn many important lessons from old family members.
For example,when I was young,I lived a large family.I learened many important traditional values such as family realationship,brotherhood and respect for old people.Therfore,I prefer a alrge family to a small family.

practice 1.

My immediate family is small just my parents,two siblings and me but my extended family is very large.I have 30 cousins.We often see each other.Expecially when I was under 25,we all lived nearby for 15 years. Even after I got married, my family ties are still strong.I always think about my family,I still have good memories.


If something happens in the family like a wedding or a graduation,we get together because my mom was the center of activities the whole family.

Last day of April

Time is going too fast.
This morning I met a teacher who is almost kiwi and is interested in foreign languages.I interviewed with him so I decided to study for ielts speaking from next week.He is little bit old but pretty gentle,polite and humorous.He can teach french,japanes and english.These days he studies korean by himself so during interview time he asked me about korean's meaning.He will be my good teacher.I am expecting my new english class.
I am going to bl..... with my kids and Erin to meet Gavin tomorrow.I am nervous about driving far away because I have never driven far away but I trust Erin and myself.My kids and I miss Gavin so we can do that!!!
I will be very busy every day from next week.I will start new class three times per week and I have to meet Erin and prepare snack and dinner for my kids and Erin.
When I study or talk with foreigner, I am satisfied with my life and feel more comfortable before 1 year.Maybe I hope to develope my english skill after 5 years!
I want to turn as western person. Anyway enjoy trip and class!!!

Too lazy and too busy

I write first time since I have written for 1 month so too lazy and lazy.
I just met a laywer and a my owner and I had a big deal afther that I am very upset and exhausted.However I found solution of problems by myself.Anyway I decided to live Newzeland for a long time so I have to try to ielts test and studing English.After 2 months,what will I do? How can I get money? Where can I work? I can't know anythings but I know that I must study English and I have to get a ielts.I always concern my life but it is very hard for me.
Alice is pregnant 4weeks ago but her contition is very bad.I am worry about her baby.
Last year,she had a bad experience which her baby die in her body.I really hope she will be fine and her baby will be healthy.She is very kind and thoughful.God will help her.
Today I am so so sad...................................

Newzealand

I really want to go to NZ because I will try to apply my work-visa and speak english.I can't speak english in Korea so I am getting forget english.When I go to outside I didn't see foregin people.I miss my NZ friends especially Seunghee,Soyoung,Miyoung,Erin and Gavin.I am interested in NZ life so I didn't connect Korean's friends.Sometimes they who live in Korea can't understand me so I don't want to talk anythings.This situations gave me stressful time.I will go to NZ next week.After I will come back I will very busy.I have to buy new car and Lewis has to check his body for extension of student visa.I will meet Mr. Youn who is laywer.I will apply to work visa and I will work.I am very nervous but I am excited in my new life.Anyway I will go to NZ 10th of April.I hope I will get a NZ new life for my own life.

Best friend and aunts

I went to my best friend's house.It took 2hours from my house so I was very tired but I really missed my best friend.She is primary teacher and she has one son but she want to divorce with husband.We talked lots of things last night we understood each other quite well.She cooked delicious meal for me.I enjoyed my rest time with my friend.This moring(sunday)I met my aunts and uncles.I have 5 aunts who are over 70years.Only my mom passed away so I suddenly missed my mom.When I have lived in NZ I somtimes called my aunts but they thought I won't go to NZ anymore.I really hurt my heart and sorry to them.I am as a their daughter.Meanwhile I was so so sad because they are getting older and wick.Especially I extreamly miss my mom...............

Norico

Norico and Kate came to my house.We ate lunch together and went to insadong road which is Korean traditional road.Norico was interested in Korea suveniar so she bought a few things.I just searched price of Gavin's friend's gift but it was very different price from each shop so next week I will go to korean big market.These days I am very tired but I can't take a rest because I have to meet my friends.Norico gave to my kids lots of gifts.Ashely received wallet,it is very qute.Lewis received Japanese popular jumper and underwear,I received Japanes bread and candy.I am very thanksful.We will go to Lotteworld(smilar Diseneyland) on friday.
My kids are expecting playing with Norico.Me too...

Enjoy my free time.

I enjoy my free time at Korea but the weather is so cold even snowing in a spring season.I went to my friend who got a cancer and cured cancer.Her face is so wick.When I met her this morning I was very surprised.She is stil losing weight and she doesn't working.Before I went to her house I decided that I don't cry in front of her but I didn't control my mind.At last I cried very freely in fornt of her.Today I was so sad she said when she was in hospital she has seen an evil at that time she shoutted she really wanted to live longer.
Somtimes somone who is serious case can see a angel or an evil.I am glad that she can conquest her disease and relive.My feeling mixed happiness and sadness.

Too busy

My Korea's life is so busy.I am sauna at the moment.I went here with my five friends yesterday,We talked news of each other until 2am.I woke up at 5am this morning,took a shower and drank a cup of coffee.My friends still nice and thoughful.One of my friend's husband upgraded his social position,it was very grad and good news.Another friend will buy bigger house.They had good news so I feel that I am very happy and satisfied.They always worry about me because they thought my NZ life will really good for me.Some feiends asked me I should give up,another friends give me cheer up
but who knows? Even I don't know my future.
Anyway Seoul is extreamly busy.IF I go to somewhere,I always use transport it is ridiculous.So many people,very noisy,a bad air and bad smell.I would like to go to NZ.I miss a quite place,a pure air,a normal road and a calm city.I realised I want to be real NZ resitance.Although I met my husband,I didn't happy and I concern about my life.

Come back home!!

When I arrived in Korea at 6:40 on tuesday.The weather was so cold,thick air and traffic was terrible but it was different NZ's life.I cleaned my house,went to hospital for me and Lewis and met my friend.Even this is Korea but I also very busy.
I don't have a car it is very uncomfortable.I hope weather is getting warmmer.I will meet my relative family and my friends all the time.I am very excited.
My husband is so strange because he lived in seoul alone although his weight is just same KG.I can't understand.Anyway he is extreamly different with me that caused streeful for me.Time is so so fast.I want to go to NZ quickly.Erin is practcing how to be mom,Gavin is working and I am preparing my new life.I am soooooo tired.

I am very sleepy..

The weater is cold and it seems to be winter.
I packed my luggage in the morning and cleaned Lewis's room.Next monday we are going to back Korea and Erin is going to move to my house.Gavin is going to his placement for teaching practice.Erin and Gavin are too upset and sad.They love each other but they have to live seperately.It will be extreamly sad.Meanwhile they are seperated by their life but they will meet after 2weeks,they make sure their love.Don't be upset and sad!!
I expect to meet my family and real friends.Ahley and Lewis too.Even I live in Korea I will try to read English article and write in my blogue.I promised with myself.
Today Gavin and Erin will come to my house because we have to say goodbye.I made a beef stew,side dishes.Last time when they ate a beef stew,they really love a beef stew.I will miss my Korean friends and NewZealand's friends.

Religion.

Religion is a very serious subject. If someone believes in God, we call them Christan. If somone believes in Buddha, we call them Buddhist. If we debate religion, we have a variety of opinions. I just believe my destiny and my siprit. If I help somebody, I will get some luck or someone's help in return. If I harm somebody, I must receive something bad in return. I just believe in a normal life(give and take). I sometimes deal with another person, sometimes I don't deal with them. Do people who are religious have an opinion? Why must they believe in God or Buddha? Does God exist in heaven?

Today Sajin, Sebin's mom and Challen came to my house. After we ate lunch, they talked about church. Challen and Sajin have church problems. They looked for another church. They said their church had lots of problems but I didn't agree because if I were Christan, I wouldn't complain in front of another person. They should think about their own religion problem in their heart; even I have negative feeling about religion.

Different customs.

I am very interested in western customs because I want to move to NewZealand and Lewis want to study in America.Sometimes I have experiences with different thinking,food,manner etc.It is very interesting.It just my curiosity and I want to escape from Korean custom but I am still Korean,maybe forever.In my thought,Korea's are better than western,vice-versa.For example,western man usually cook very well,but Korean man doesn't cook often(except new young generation)
Western woman is stronger than Korean woman.My feeling is that western people are little bit more selfish than Koreans.ANYWAY very interesting.Sometimes I envy them and sometimes I am surprised.That is my cuture shock.I learn a lot of things from Gavin and Erin.Thank you so much.

BBQ and C.L.F

We went to Gavin and Erin's house. They invited us for dinner.
The chef was Gavin. People who were involved in this party were Erin, their roommate Nicole and her boyufriend, Phil. Before I met them,I felt a little bit nervous but after I met her,I felt very comfortable. Also, Nicole is teacher which is why my feeling was very good. The dinner menu was salmon, korean beef, kumara, potatoes and corn. Gavin made everthing by himself. It was so so delicious. I have never eaten homemade western food before(except when Erin made stirfry but that was at my house which is different). It was my first time. It was so exciting. Thanks for cooking!!!
After dinner, we walked to the Chinese Lantern Festival in the city.
The lights were so beautiful but I worried about kids because it was quite crowded so they might get lost from the adults. So I was getting tired but I was so happy because my kids and theit kiwi friends were satisfied with dinner and the festival.I am going to the sunday market with Jasmine and Ashley before I will drop them off at their house.
I am tired. Deep sleep please.....................

Letter

Hi, I am one of your best friends.^^
Today's weather is overcast.
This morning was very sunny but suddenly the weather has changed.
I was feeling upset, too. However after I read your letter, I am so happy.
I was so glad to recieve your email and when I read your letter I felt like I had met you again.
Don't be upset about your English because you should have pride. Your major isn't english and you have just studied for 3 years. You don't need to compare with another person.
Just be yourself.
If you keep studying english more and more,your english skills will be much improved.
I guarantee you.
I thought that I learnt english from you when we studied together at golden section.
I always concentrated on how to make sentences so I was often thankful to you.
CHEER UP!!YOU CAN DO IT!!
I really miss you because you and I have similar problems so we can connect with each other.
If you live in nz,we will be best friends. Although we live far away, we can try to keep our good relationship by phone and email.
Erin doesn't have an internet line, but I will tell her about your wish.
When we meet next time, I will call you with Erin.
I have to memorize lots of vocabulary but I didn't do that.
I am a little bit lazy.^^~
Kate, Thank you for your email.
I am looking forward to hearing from you again.
I hope you will have your own life and you can find a solution to your problems.

miss you.....

ps: My grammer is so bad ,can you understand me?^^

FRIEND

One of my friends got cancer so she had an operation on her womb last month.I feel so bad because she is soo nice and thoughtful which is why she did not deserve this pain. She is 43 years old, has lots of money, a son and daughter as well as a nice husband who has a warm-heart and good communication skills. She seems perfect. I always envy her and I sometimes feel jealous. After I heard about her pain,I cried for a long time. I REALLY MISS HER and I really want to see her quickly. When I go to Korea, I will meet her as soon as I can. She is in the hospital at the moment. I hope she will have a healthy body and mind again. Maybe god will help her. She belives in god....

Good morning.

I woke up eary at 4,30am.I already packed my kids's lunchboxes and I made breakfast.Paknsave's parking lot is empty,roadlamps are lit and car's drive in front of my house occasionally.My house is quite quiet.I feel peaceful.
I am going to school to ask about Tom's homestay problem.
If Erin can,Tom and I are satisfied however I have a concern that Erin will have stress by Tom's behaviors.I believe Tom's nature is nice character and I trust Erin's ability.
Gavin,Erin and me......
What kind of destiny do we have? To meet peoples,it is very mysterious such as to be a live.If somethings want to help me,I just want to say "THANK YOU SO MUCH"

Erin's dish---so delicious

The weater was quite good!!Erin made western food.The food was so delicious and healthy.We bought chicken(breast fillets),several vegetables and teriyaki sauce.Erin was today's chef and Ashley assisted her.I was very happy because Erin and Ashley enjoyed cooking.After dinner,Gavin washed the dishes so I relaxed.Next time, I will try to make again with my kids.I have a bad problem because Lewis always argues with Ashley.I always make the judgement which is not good because i always lose my temper.I asked Erin.Erin said to me "You do not have to judge them,they will figure out themselves." I will try to control my mind.I think that Gavin and Erin will be good parents.They have lots of knowledge,are very clever,have a sense of good humour and are kind.I am embarrassed often because I am a very strict mom to my kids.After moving to another country,I realise my faults.I should change myself.It will be good for my kids and me.Thanks Gavin and Erin.

The Loneliness........

I have lived in Newzealnd for 1 year.When I arrived for the first time, I had expectiona for my new life,my kids's school and my dreams.I always want to do things by myself but I sometimes feel that I have burdens.At times, I want to give up my burdens however I can not to do.I am extremly lonely eventhough I have 3 kids.Do I need a friend? Do I need a lover?I am so so sad just like when I was going through puberty.If I listen to music, I cry and I am upset.If I do not to do anything,I keep thinking about my problems.I do not want to endure anymore.What can I do???Who can help me??I already know answer.The answer is ME.

TO become friends.

To make a friend is very difficult for me as I am getting older.
When I was in high school,I was very outgoing and was a prim-looking person.I have never talked to somebody if I was not interested in the person(especiaally man)and I sometimes ignored people.I am near the end of my 30's,I thought in my young ages I was very selfish person so my mom always worried about me because she already knew my bad charcter.That is why she taught me how to have good charcter,she always trained to have communication skills.After my mom passed away,i realied by myself that I was a very a wicked person,had a negative mind and was very independent.I will try to change my mind for my future.I feel reborn.

korean style sushi--kimbab

What a wonderful sunny day!!I made kimbab for Gavin,Erin and my kids. It took 2hours,my house was so hot but I was happy.When they ate together,I felt that they liked it but compared with another korea food little bit untasty.SO I will make different dish. Sometimes I worry about what to make dinner for them,but I am satisfied with my concern and I really enjoy with my new friends.The times passed away,I love western life because Gavin and Erin always help my family.Especially,Gavin is teaching western lifestyle and manners to Lewis.Erin always hangs out with me and I feel that I am still woman.IF I meet Korean friends, I an just a mom but when I meet Erin or Gavin, I am a just woman or friend.I am greatly happy.WHO can understand me??

apprehension

I am going to korea after 3 weeks but i am afraid of seoul so i dont want to go there.I love cuurrently nz life. I just take care of my kids,study english,enjoy to meet my friends and have a good time with gavin and erin.My nz life is very exciting. If i want to get something,i would like try to find.I wonder about 3weeks korea life because i dont want to meet someone but i must meet someone anyway i have to go..so sad...HOWEVER i will meet my good friends,i should comfort myself.Sometimes my feeling is getting worse because i really want to stay here.

the SUNNY day

I like sunny day. The weather was so good! I helped my friend who have to move,so i want to help her because she does not husband in nz. I thought that she will move to new house by herself so i helped her.When i help somone who are real friends and honest friends, i am satisfied to my heart.when i give to somone,i am very happy and my feeling is full.When i was young,my mom always to do.After i grown up,i am changed as a my mom.When i think about my mom,i always smile because my mom is always smile and she has strong sweat mind.TODAY, i was busy and little bit tired but i am happy.I wish i want to become as a my mom.MOM i love you.

GLOOMY

My heart and the weather are very depressing.My mind always feel empty but i don't know the reason.THESE DAYS I am very happy because i have two friends who always help me , tell me different customs,teach my kids,give me advise, give me their warm heart, etc.HOWEVER,I always feel missing something.I dont know why????I am afraid of my future and my life.I wish for my mom.Can you help me?(I ask my mum,"Can you help me?)

say GOOD BYE....

WHILE living in nz,I have been seperated from two friend:kate and norico.It's so sad because i need real friends and i want to talk with adults. Living in another country is hard for me.When i seperated from someone, i always cry.My character is too sensitive and too sharp.I am sometimes ashamed.I will miss them.

Open my internet world...

TODAY the weather was very good and Erin helped me to make my blog. It was interesting.

Gavin and Erin's surprising gift...delicious cake...great...

I will try to write on my blog by myself and tell my story..